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[intercalaryninja]

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<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

idk if thats the case 4 every1
bt 4 me it seems that way
helpful
bt
iunno
the fog healin me
kinda puts me on edge

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

I should ask the Lake Dala Clinic or the labs when I go to work. It would be a useful thing to know.

But it makes sense that you're on edge.

You don't follow either god, do you?

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

u work at the labs now?
liewen labs?

nah
had enuf of gods bck home
even the good one was
well
u cant count on gods

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

I've been working there for quite some time now. I'm a security guard. I work most nights there, usually while Reira-dono is sleeping.

No personal experience there, but I can agree on that.

I'll ask around for the fog healing. But maybe it's something else? Did you do something weird lately? Mana something?

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

nope
ive gotten injuries b4
heals real quick when it starts gettin foggy

[By injuries he means being dead.]

wait
if ur looking after reira during the day
bt ur working as a guard at nite
tsukikage
when r u sleeping

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

[Death and broken arms aren't the same though. He had his face blasted off and he came back fine in the fog.]

I sleep enough

[That's not an answer!]

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

when

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

When I have time.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

and when is that

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

When I find time. Usually in the afternoon or early morning after work but before Reira-dono wakes up.

I'm fine.

[But like... it's 2 hours tops every day.]

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

and how much time is that

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

I shall skip the specifics and ensure you that it is most likely not enough to make it to your standard. Or most peoples, really.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

kids learn frm the ppl who take care of them u kno

[And Reira had told him some of his worries... but Crow doesn't want to out something said in confidence.]

is this the sort of thing u want reira 2 see
do u want him 2 learn that caring about himself isnt important?
or that eveythin should b done alone?
hes not blind u kno
he can see wat ur doin
or not doin in this case
idk if u realise it bt
whether u like it or not
ur raising a kid
not training a ninja
ur not just a bodyguard any more

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

[There's a long silence before Tsukikage even replies.]

Of course not.

...

I know I'm a bad example.

I just want to make things right.

I have a lot to atone for.

I never intended on training him as a ninja. Does it come across like that?

I'm trying to learn as fast as I can but my efforts aren't enough. I know this. I know I'm barely a caretaker.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

hey
i kno it aint easy
its ok 2 make mistakes
i was round ur age when i started looking after kids
muddlin thru and makin mistakes
bt dont 4get u hv friends who cn help
im sure uh who was that guy living w/ u again
he can look after reira 4 a bit while u get sum zzz
and if he cant lmk and ill drop in
im sure reira would feel better knowing ur getting sum rest

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

Frodo. I suppose it would be alright to ask him.

And you. Is that really okay?

I feel bad for asking, honestly. I'm sure you have plenty to do otherwise.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

im more than happy 2
idk how much like me the crow u knew was like bt
i hv a real gaggle back home
raised em 4 a good few years
i had help 2
tbh it feels weird
not looking after kiddos

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

He was a lot like that.
Never talked to him, but it was clear he did everything and anything for his kids.
Even when he was arrested I could hear him telling them to take care.

There is an orphanage in Bavan actually that I know of.
Maybe if you particularly desire to go look after kids once in a while, you could go help out there. I know some monsters work there. Yuurika for example, she's very kind.
Not the same but an option.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

pft
arrested huh
sounds rite

yea
ran some deliveries 4 her 4 a bit
bt
i
i cant bring myself 2 get close
nt when i kno that im putting everythin in2 getting home 2 my own kids
feels like itd b worse
2 get close only 2 abandon them at the 1st chance

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

If you see it that way, I suppose so.

But to starve yourself of that sort of relationship.

People do come and go, and that's a reality of life. Those children know that as much as you do.

Just because you'll have to go eventually and want to go, doesn't mean you're abandoning them.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

u sure theyll c it that way?
cause id b clearly choosing some1 else over them

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

No I don't. But people see things differently.

Some children will see how I explain, some like you think they will.

At the end of the day, it is up to you.

<Crow-sama!>

[cawnviction]

i guess
ill consider it

bt u get sum rest ok
its no good 4 anyone if u work urself 2 exhaustion

< hazyreflection >

[intercalaryninja]

I will. When Reira-dono sleeps today, I'll rest my eyes.

Just give me a yell when you're better and can bring the generator in.

And Crow, take care of yourself.